My Rare Disease, My Story

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Oh where do I begin? Let’s start with when I didn’t know what Cushing’s was. Let's back track to the beginning.

The day I got diagnosed was my sixth time to the doctors office for bronchitis that year; it was my second time with walking pneumonia. I went in and cried to my doctor that I was barely eating, gaining weight, I was only sleeping two hours per night, my body always hurt, I had bruising all the time and swore that I was going crazy, had depression or was a hypochondriac. He looked at me and said, “You have Cushing’s I bet.” I thought "Is this man crazy? What is Cushing’s?" He examined me as this was the first time I had seen him. He looked at my neck and said that I had a buffalo hump, saw red and white stretch marks on my stomach. He reviewed my food log and saw I was only eating 1600 calories per day and had gained eighty pounds in a year and half and was still gaining.

I had a hysterectomy three years prior and felt like I had hormone imbalances ever since. Actually, I felt like I had those even before that. I always thought  the loss of muscle, the bruising, and weight gain was all because of that. It was from the hormones but not from that. I went to doctor after  doctor after doctor and they said my estrogen and testosterone was fine. Sometimes they would give me a pill for depression or more estrogen to cure my hot flashes and other symptoms. The depression pills never worked for me. I went to a doctor that gave me more estrogen and had their clinical psychologist call me to see if I wanted “had bruising, cried a lot, was 37 and must have a bad home life.” That made me SO mad! I wasn’t having a bad home life at all. I left that clinic and went to another one because of that. It was meant to be because that’s when I found Dr. Edmonds,my primary care physician, the one that said I probably had Cushing’s.

​After Dr. Edmonds said I needed to test, he set me up for two tests: an 8 a.m. cortisol blood draw and a dexamethasone test. One came back positive but the other was negative. Then my doctor thought maybe I didn't have Cushing's. By this time, I had looked up everything I could on Cushing’s and started researching everywhere I could. I found some videos on Youtube, a couple of websites, blogs and Facebook groups on Cushing’s. I researched Cushing’s specialists and decided to go to, in my opinion, the top endocrinologist at the time, Dr. Theodore Friedman (or "Dr. F., as we call him). He listened to me. I tested A LOT! I even tested wrong at first, by testing when I felt bad instead of testing when I felt better (on a high). At first, some of my tests came back normal because I cycled from high cortisol to low. After learning more and getting help from other Cushies by figuring out when to test, my tests came back high, high and high. I went in for a MRI (you should always get a T3 MRI) and they saw something that COULD be a tumor. I was scared and relieved at the same time. What a weird feeling to have. My endo saw a tumor on the left side and my neurologist saw one on the right. It was very confusing but I was finally diagnosed in the beginning of July 2014 and had my surgery scheduled three weeks later in Houston, Texas at MD Anderson, even though I live in California.

Once I was ready for surgery, it couldn’t come fast enough. I wanted to get rid of the tumor and get back to a normal life. By the time my surgery rolled around, my muscle wasting had me only able to lift about 10 pounds. I still wasn’t sleeping. I was angry at nights and had so much anxiety that my foot was tap, tap, tapping all the time. I bruised if someone touched me hard or bumped me. I was depressed because I felt like my family would do better without me around. I am a mother of four teenagers.  It was hard because I wanted to do so much for them. I felt bad that my husband was picking up the slack. I wanted ME back! I wanted to ride my horse, shoot my bow, cook dinner and be able to move the pot of spaghetti etc. NOW I HAD THE CHANCE!

July 25th,2014, I had my surgery. I wanted to jump up on the table to have my brain tumor removed. I had a calm that day and was prepared for it. My husband was by my side and I waved at him and said “See you on the remission side.” When out of surgery, we were told that they had found TWO tumors on my pituitary that were connected underneath. They felt they had gotten it all out. I was relieved.

It's now seven months after my surgery. I am starting to  lose weight.  I am sleeping every night all night long. My hair is growing back. I am not bruising. I can think again and don’t have brain fog all the time. I feel more like ME again. Every single symptom has reversed or is getting better. I can lift 55 pounds now! That a lot considering I could only lift 10. My friends, family and especially children see the differences and all for the good. I take it day by day because recovery is hard and I have to remember I am not going to be ME all in one day. I have more and more glimpses, though, of the old me. I am happier. I am happy to see the flip side.

I have really tried to become an advocate for Cushing’s. I have started a Facebook group called “ Cushing’s!!” that has over 800 members and is all about Cushing’s support. My friend Van and I started a blog together, www.2cushiegirls.blogspot.com. My good friend Rachel and I have worked hard on a website called www.Cushingstories.com. Its a place to go to see other patients stories. Not only is it their story but we have patient videos (in their own words) and tons of Blogs. We want to let people know there are others out there and have it all on one site. The stories of all of us. It’s why I decided from the beginning to YouTube my journey because that was the first place I looked for others like me. I cried on my first video. I almost didn’t post it. I decided that if I can help one person that it was worth the humility of it all.

 

 

There is a lot of information out there. www.Cushingstories.com is a AMAZING site. Also www.Cushings-help.org. My personal favorites are these blogs because they are real....and you really can see the journey of the person!

 

Living with Cushing's Disease is one of my personal favorites. Its written by a good friend of mine who is also the Co-Founder of Cushingstories.com. She is someone who is amazing at keeping it real and positive. She has had her struggles but has been in remission now for years! Check out her blog https://cushieworld.wordpress.com/

 

Moxie has an amazing site that is chalked full of information!!! She is an amazing lady who will always be there for you to answer questions. Please check out her site at http://www.cushingsmoxie.blogspot.com/

 

Then there is my good friend Nicci who is very real, raw and doesn't hold back what she is thinking or feeling. You should check her out at http://cushiequeen.blogspot.com/

 

I hope now you know a little bit more about my disease and have an understanding of what my family and I have gone through. Each day is amazingly better! As you can see on my blog that I am living and we are having fun! Just thought I would tell you my story!

Bless all of you. Thank you for reading my story. Please feel free to write me anytime. I always answer.  Cushingscountrygirl@gmail.com.

NEW CUSHINGS WEBSITE

I would like to tell you all about the new Cushing's Website. It was made by a good friend of mine Rachel Wilson and I. When I first found out about Cushing's I didn't know where to look for Videos, Blogs and Stories of others. This website has it all!!!! It just got launched today after 4 months of working on it! Please share with others......you never know who it will help out!

www.cushingstories.com

Thank you to all of you who submitted stories, videos or your blogs to help others. Without you we couldn't of done this!

Love, Rae

Before and After (symptoms)

So today a couple of my Cushie friends asked me to send them my symptoms list that I had when I first was having problems. While rereading it to send to them because its been almost a year now (four months post op though) I noticed that WOW things have changed! I am hoping this will give someone hope! But this is my symptoms and in parenthesis is what it is like now after 4 months post op.

• Inability to lose weight no matter diet or exercise (able to lose weight now)
• Central Obesity (stomach 2 inches smaller) 
• Weight Gain 47 pounds in 6 months 80 pounds in one year (lost 23 pounds)
• Insomnia only sleeping 2-3 hours a night (restful sleep 8 plus hours)
• Buffalo Hump (yep its getting smaller)
• Moon Face (double chin getting smaller and can see cheek bones)
• Hot all the time even in a cold room (now I sleep under the blankets instead of on top)
• Thinning hair especially around my bangs area (new whispies appearing!)
• Red, Flushed Face (no more hot flashes)
• Heart Palpitations almost every night 120s (Heart rate is at normal level 60-80s)
• Blood Pressure on daily basis 160/110 (Now 123/80s)
• Not much of a Libido (Yeah for my husband its back)
• Stretch marks all over stomach and corners of breasts red and thick (starting to fade color)
• Low immune system. Bronchitis 6 times and walking pneumonia in 8 months (bronchitis one time in 4 months)
• Loss of words and work call (less and less but still have short term memory problems)
• Anxiety every night and out the roof (Anxiety only when actually called for)
• Mood Swings. (Husband said those are WAY less :)
• Weakening of Muscles Before Surgery could only lift 10-15lbs (lifting 30-45 pounds now)
• Fatigue just had no git up and go (still tired but it is better and I am doing a lot more)
• Whiskers popping up on chin (same)
• Bruising without even noticing I was bumping into anything (no bruising)
• Thinning skin, hurts to touch sometimes (seems to be toughening up because doesn't hurt as much)
• Major Aches and Pains (minor aches and pains except when hip goes out)
• Very slow healing with cuts or bug bites (faster healing but still slower than normal)
• Concentration is VERY weak (able to start and finish tasks with no problem)
• Depression and don't have a reason why really (feeling much better)

So in 4 months there has been so much change! Amazing because I realized it but didn't realize it as much until I saw my personal symptoms list. There really can be a light at the end of the tunnel with remission. Not everyone will have the same effects. Some more and some less but it does get better! If you are not there yet please feel free to always email me at cushingscountrygirl@gmail.com and lets help you find drs or help or support. I am not a DR by any means but I am willing to help you find support. If you are in remission and would like to share your story please email me also. We are working on a website of cushingstories where all stages of the disease are addressed through personal journeys.

A week from hell? Or was it?

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I have had a week of craziness. One of scary AI events to one of victory and fun and happiness. I guess that is a Recovering Cushies life. I have good days and I have bad days. I guess I will start from exactly 7 days ago. Just to give you an idea of my week

Monday-I woke up with my throat killing me for the second day. Made an appt to go see the Dr but that never even came. See when you have a fever, or are in pain, or have a sickness after having pituitary surgery you have to stress dose. Before surgery my tumor would create me to have excess cortisol. After my surgery and now that the tumor is out I am retraining my body to produce its own cortisol therefor I take it in the pill form. When you are sick your body eats up the cortisol or sometimes its hard to even keep it in your body because of vomiting, diarrhea etc...   This was me. I couldn't keep my medicine down. I started to vomit, already had a fever, my throat was killing me, started to get really confused and my hands and arms felt like they weren't working. My husband thankfully was there, gave me my 100 mg emergency Solu-Coref shot and we went into the ER midday. Once at the ER my blood pressure was sky high which is usually abnormal for someone who is going through Adrenal Insufficiency but I am one of those rare ppl who it shoots sky high and then plummets fast. That's how I knew something was wrong besides that I was loosing my thought process and my arm functions. My blood pressure has been normal since surgery but that day it was 194/133 and my heart was racing. Thankfully the ER doctor got ahold of my Endo and he said yes Blood Pressure can go high and to treat her. I had my emergency letter so they gave me another 100mg of Solu-coref, 2 bags of IV fluids, tested me for strept (I was positive), gave me pain meds and then tested my electrolytes and salt levels. Once I was feeling better and stable they let me go home with a prescription of Penicillin.

Tuesday-Woke up still feeling bad. Went by Dr orders and tripled my cortisol intake for the day to be able to keep enough in me since my body still had temp. Took my antibiotics by mouth. Stayed in bed all day. Got up just to go to the bathroom. Fever finally broke that night.

Wednesday- I woke up on the third day and my throat was killing me. Hurt to swallow but forced fluids down. Took my antibiotics and my cortisol as instructed by the Dr. Was not feeling well. Felt overly tired and felt as if I was getting low again. Stress dosed again. Started getting nauseous and then couldn't keep anything down. No fluids, no medicine.....started to once again go into Adrenal Insufficiency by not being able to lift my arms well or keep any meds down. Started to want to just sleep, sleep, sleep. Husband once again gave me shot and took me into the ER. This time they knew I was coming and had everything set up for me. Got another 100mg Solu-coref. Iv bags of fluids, Pain medication for my head from my blood pressure that was once again sky high on the way to the ER and then plummeted by the time I got there. We live 45 minutes from nearest hospital. THIS TIME though they gave me a shot in the rear-end of Penicillin since I had not been able to keep my meds down. I got replacement fluids and was released to go home 5 hours later.

Thurday- Decision day....I woke up and my throat felt better. I still sounded horrible but I could swallow and I felt so much better. I didn't leave my bed much though because I had a big decision to make. Two of my four kids were having a Championships game in Football. Not only was it important to not one BUT Two of my kids but it was the first time they had been to Championships since 2003. This was a big deal to them. I had been to every one of their home games and went to their playoffs and didn't want to miss their championship game. I still didn't feel well enough to even think of going yet but I would really think about it. By Friday, if I felt better then I was going to go. I decided that we would just stay in a hotel that night so I could go to the hotel and rest before and after the game. I didn't want to play with fire but I didn't want to not be there for my kids. Its a fine line. To me I felt like this is something they would always remember though. I knew if I felt better the next day I would be going.

Friday- Game day! I was feeling a lot better. Still not perfect but I decided I was going to be at the game. Told my boys I would see them later that day. We took the 2 hour drive and checked into the hotel. Made some posters, got new rain jackets and even bought a couple new winter clothes for the game. It was sprinkling when we left. Once at the game I kept having friends and family watch out for me. I couldn't scream (didn't have enough of a voice) but I clapped and cheered. The smiles on my boys face was unforgettable. They were excited, pumped up and happy we were there. That night it rained a lot and I knew that me being there probably wasn't the best decision in the world. I wouldn't of asked or even told anyone else to do what I did.....but for me....and my life....it was what I wanted to do. I know this is going to sound dumb to some but I don't want to live my life with regrets. My mother died at 55 years old from cancer and the one thing she said to me was to LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE.....so for ME this is what I was doing. I am proud to say that my boys and their whole awesome Cardinals team WON!!!! It was such a big celebration and to see them jumping up and down screaming was awesome! Even better was when both teams came together and prayed. It was a site to see. I am so glad that I went. I knew I would have to take it easy for the next few days as I was still recovering but it was worth it to see my sons faces on this day in their lives that they will not forget.

My boys so proud of them

Bundled up

They won!

Saturday-Monday... We slept in and decided to stay a couple days at the hotel. It would be a time for shopping, movies, going to Turtle Bay Museum and Toytopia. I am thankful I have the husband that I do. I went out when they went to eat and went to a movie or two in the next few days. The rest of the time I was back at the hotel resting or sleeping as my family went shopping, swam at the hotel, got haircuts, went to the bird house etc.3/4 of the time I was in the hotel resting. I am a lucky gal. I didn't get sick after and I am continuing to get better. I know in the future I will definitely have to remember to watch it when I get sick. I will have to make sure that I rest and recover. I am not saying I would want anyone to do what I did. It was just the right decision for me and my family. I have no regrets for this week. It started off pretty scary and I am really new at this (being only 3.5 months post op) but I am learning along the way. I am also so thankful for all my friends, family and Cushing support who tell me how they feel. Are honest with me and yet not mean. Who help me to learn as I am going also. I want to say thank you for that awesome support.

Now this coming week....Thanksgiving.....

Is it Remission? IS IT??

As you all know I am 3 months post op from having pituitary surgery to get a tumor out. I have had Cushings for at least 4 years but can go back about 6. I have been waiting on my 3 month tests to see if I am truly in Remission for Cushings Disease. This has been my mission.....to be in remission! Its everyone who has Cushings mission because we just want to feel better, get healthier, get our lives back! Today I feel like this lady!!!

I feel remission symptoms poking out more than my Cushings symptoms. In the last three months I have been now able to pick up almost 30 pounds instead of 10. I have lost 24 pounds even though I am still weening from cortisol. I sleep every night. No insomnia. My general mood is better. My hair is starting to grow back. I do not have high blood pressure anymore. I am not bruising at the slightest touch. I now get cold instead of always being hot and my life is starting to peak out! I am starting to see every single part of me repair although it maybe slow. My life is coming back! I see bigger and bigger peaks of me...of the Real Rae!
BUT................................I still worry. Am I remission? Or am I not? Am I in remission or am I not? Am I just getting better because they got most of my tumor out? Or do I have cells left and I just am feeling better and doing better but not truly in remission. I needed to make sure my testing was just as good as my symptoms were. Today was that day! I feel it was one of the best days of my life. Is that sad? Probably but this has been one of the battles that I hope will forever be over with! Its not easy by any means.

ACTH 13 (normal 6-50)

Cortisol at 8am blood draw 10.9 (4-22normal)

So I got all my test results back. I had 8am blood draw and I am in remission!! REMISSION! I have wanted to hear that for so long that I keep looking at myself in the mirror and saying to myself "Yes you are!". My cortisol is great now! So much lower than it ever was! These are great numbers for me to have. My acth has gone down so much! Even at the hospital on day 5 after my surgery  it was 25 so it has gone down to 13. To be honest guys...I am crying as I write this because I needed that validation from my numbers as much as from my symptoms.

I still need to remember that I am 3 months post op from a brain surgery. I have to remember that I am not that full on superwoman that I want to be. I have that peaking out and know its there. I have to be careful.I just had my daughters 16th bday party and it was a huge success. I knew it would take every last piece of energy out of me but with friends and family to help me it would be amazing. I have to remember to heal. I took that day and ran myself ragged. I will pay for that day for many days after but to me it was worth it. I found myself doing things that I couldn't do for a really long time. It was an amazing moment in time. I know that my daughter will remember her masquerade bday party forever because of it. Sweet 16! I had to do it....and I could! Before surgery there would be no way I could of done what I did that day. I even danced with my husband! I hadn't danced with him in years. I laughed! I had fun! I decorated and made it so she would remember this forever! I had great memories with her that I hope she will never forget. All this because my amazing Dr Edmonds, my endo Dr Friedman and my Neurosurgeon Dr. McCutcheon took the time and their knowledge to help me. These three men will always have a place in my heart for they gave me my life back! I am in Remission! Its a day to celebrate! Just like my daughters sweet 16......here are a couple pictures of that special day!

My daughter Cassie sweet 16 Masquerade Ball

My husband Ryan, My daughter Cassie and I

Ready for my first party after surgery (3 months)

My youngest son Jason Dancing

My middle son Joshua

My oldest son Jackson

Kids getting the dance floor set up

Cushings Blogs of friends of mine!

Its always good to see a story or be able to relate to someone. I wanted to share just a couple of friends who said I could share their sites for others to see. These are all Cushies that are on my facebook group called "Cushings!!" please feel free to join at anytime! These are not in order but thought it would be good for you to have a couple to look at:)

Health in Sickness By Van   http://onedelicateheart.blogspot.com/

Living with Cushings By Rachel  http://cushieworld.wordpress.com/

Livehard.livestrong by Nicole  http://cushiequeen.blogspot.com/

My life as a girl with Cushings By Tiffany  http://www.youngcushie.blogspot.com/

Cushings with Moxie by Moxie   http://cushingsmoxie.blogspot.com/


Muskeg Farm by Catherine  http://muskegfarm.blogspot.com/


and of course this blog that Van and I started to show you the difference between two Cushies:). These are just a few of many blogs that really have the journey and story of cushings. These ladies are all fantastic. Its not easy to put your life out there.....but its worth it if you can help one person or many!

My good friend Rachel and I are working also on a Cushingstories.com website. We would love to be able to put on your videos or stories onto our site for more ppl to see. Please comment below or email me at Cushingscountrygirl@gmail.com so we can add it to the site. It will be up and running in a few weeks. Just need link to your video or blog so we can share it with the world.....Thank you in advance! We just want to advocate and get Cushings known by more.

A shot in my butt....Adrenal insufficiency is no joke!

Happy Halloween....my first real Adrenal Insufficiency day:( But I learned a lot, let me tell you.

How did it start you might ask? Well I am three months post op and went in to get my blood draws to find out how my cortisol levels were to see if I am still in remission. To do that you have to NOT take your cortisol for 24 hours. Somewhere in my head I thought it was 48 hours. Its not! I have now learned.

So I withheld my cortisol for two days. Went in and got 8 vials of blood draw to check cortisol, Acth, Growth Hormone, Vit D, Thyroid etc... I knew that I would be taking my cortisol right after my blood draw, which I did. While I was there though I was asked if I wanted a flu shot. I thought of course. So I got one of those too.

Four hours later I am feeling really achy. Like I am low but I just assume its the flu shot because sometimes it can give you flu like symptoms. One more hour later and I just am really tired and not feeling well so I go to bed really early.

I wake up in the middle of the night and vomit. I am thinking "seriously I shouldn't of taken the flu shot". What I didn't realize was I was going into Adrenal Insufficiency. I was aching so bad I could barely lift my arms. I was so sick to my stomach. I would take my cortisol and it would come straight back up. I took more to try and keep it down with an anti nauseous pill. Finally my husband realized I was going into Adrenal Insufficiency and said its not the flu. I was getting to the point where I was so confused. I couldn't barely keep my eyes open. Thought I was sleeping 2 hours and he said it was 10 minutes. All I wanted to do was fall into a sleep.  I kept saying stuff I just would never say. I couldn't even open the bathroom door because my hands hurt. We emailed my Endo and he got back to me right away! So great to have a awesome Cushings Endocrinologist who emailed me back on his day off. He said take my sol-coruf shot right now and then 30 mg orally after. Then double my regular dose for three days and take it easy. My husband got straight to grabbing my emergency shot and put it in my thigh/butt area. Within 30 minutes I was starting to feel clearer. My arms started being able to move. I wasn't feeling so tired. But I wasn't all better. So I took the 30mg orally and started to feel better. Most ppl would have to go to the hospital for hydration and also another 100mg. So if this happens to you I would recommend going in. We live so far away I just went off what my Dr said to me. Each case is different though so please go to the hospital.

It was a scary moment for us. We live 45 minutes from the nearest hospital and I am so thankful that I had the shot here in my house. I have heard so many horror stories about this. People going into comas or even dying because they didnt get the shot or get to the hospital. This is no joke!

 Now its the next day and I feel like I have the worst hangover ever. I feel my head throbbing and kinda still a little nauseous but doing WAY better. I do notice also that I am feeling more stressed. I am sure that has to do with all the cortisol running through me. The shot is 100mg. I take 7.5 now a day. So I will be taking it WAY easy to get my body back to normal. I am also taking double my regular dose for three days like my Dr told me too.

So what is the moral of this story? Adrenal Insufficiency is no joke. Don't take it lightly. Look for the signs and symptoms of it and take action. I am lucky. I could of slipped into a coma or not gotten to the hospital in time or not had the shot with me. I am lucky I had my husband there because I started to get really confused. Many ppl are alone and we need to really figure out what are symptoms are. I learned you only do not take your med ONE day before your blood draw not two. Do Not take flu shot when you are withholding cortisol from your body. If you are thinking you need the shot....take it. Don't wait. Too much cortisol wont hurt you but not enough will post op.

Look at some of the signs and symptoms of Adrenal Insufficiency to be able to pay attention to your own body more. Its important. Yesterday I was lucky in so many ways. I want you to really pay attention. I know I will be:)

If you want to contact me please feel free to email me at Cushingscountrygirl@gmail.com or I have a facebook group called "Cushings!!" I will always respond back as soon as I can.

Going to leave you with some pictures of my kids....they still had their Halloween and Football Game with the help of my friends and husband! Thank you so much!!!

my daughter as Jack Skeleton

My youngest as Nypd

Great Tackle from my oldest

My two sons won their football game!

3 months post op!

I am three months post op today! I cant believe its been 3 months already. So much has changed in just three months from having my pituitary surgery at MDAnderson in Houston TX. This is me now!

3 months post op today!

Ok, Ok so we all know how to make a camera make us look better right? Especially us Cushies we have learned to take pictures from higher up to make ourselves look thinner lol. Heck my husband even knows the drill:) Ok so this is the real me.....

3 months post op and straight on pic

In the three months since my surgery so much has gotten better! I really wanted to write a blog about what has been happening! I am feeling very blessed for sure! Lets start off with one that I have a pic for....My hair is starting to grow back. It is really thin and I have had to cut it pretty short to make it look like it has some style. I am pretty excited because I have new hair growth and whispies now. Check it out...!

This makes me pretty excited!!! In three months also I have lost 23-24 pounds. I honestly thought that weight would just FALL off of me which it hasn't. I haven't been dieting or changing anything so I am pretty happy about that weight loss. I think I am gaining muscle too so that I am sure will change my body and maybe not the scale. Good thing though is.....I know if I do choose to diet that I WILL lose weight this time. I had dieted many times and I would literally gain weight. It was frustrating so now I am really trying to get back into even wanting to diet. What else has happened in three months. I am now sleeping. I wasn't sleeping but a couple hours a night IF that. Now I sleep (if I don't have to get up to take kids to school etc) easily 8-10 hours in a row! THIS MY FRIENDS IS HUGE! My anxiety has gone down. I have no depression anymore at all. I feel like I am becoming myself again. Calmer. Fun to be around. Happier. I have stopped bruising so much and my skin doesn't hurt to touch it as much. Brain fog.....GONE!! I have trouble still with my short term memory but I even think that is getting better. My buffalo hump is going down a little also.....

before surgery buffalo hump

3 months post op buffalo hump some improvement

I am sure it will take some time for it to go away but I can see the small improvement! I have a long ways to go on recovering but that fact that I can SEE changes and FEEL changes are so nice. The best one for me is I am not antsy all the time and tapping my foot. I can stand still if I wanted:) I still kinda sway when I am standing but that is just because my hip still hurts. My blood pressure went from HIGH to now NORMAL! I didn't get diabetes or osteoporosis but I did end up with degenerate bone disease. My eyes seem brighter too. I dont know if that is a Cushings thing or not but they seem bigger and brighter to me. A lot of good has happened and symptoms are reversing themselves.

I still am not perfectly healed by all means. Although my muscle strength is coming back slow but sure...I have a hard time keeping my arms above my head for any length of time and a hard time getting up from the floor or even my chair. Just today I was helping in a friends classroom and couldn't do some of the stuff. I kinda felt stupid for saying "hey I cant do that" but I had to and just know it will continue to get better. I have short term memory loss and still have a hard time remembering some things. I have my words back though. Before surgery I would be trying to say "Can you pass the plate?". I couldn't remember the word "plate" though. I would end up frustrated and trying to describe it (you know that round thing that you put food on and we use it for dinner). Now I have my words back and its very nice. That is one of the first things I noticed, besides that I could dream again because I had sleep. I still am a long way from being and looking like the RAE that I once knew. I am getting there though and each little baby step helps me to seeing ME again. This might be my new normal but I can take that for sure! I have many blessings.....and I hope if you are not in remission yet that you will have all those blessings and more VERY SOON!

Please feel free to email me at Cushingscountrygirl@gmail.com
Also check me out on Facebook at LaRae Jones-Collins or look up our group called "Cushings!!" on Facebook.